My Pet...Peeve

I've been trying!

Oh my goodness- I used to be all (internally) snarky when people complained about how frustrated they were with blogger or many other websites that would not let them blog or comment etc.

And then it happened to me! GAH! Typepad has been the PITS this week and hasn't let me read, comment, OR post!

And now that I can, I don't have time!

Happiness:

Henry is LOVING school!
Margo got her tooth fixed and it looks better than I even imagined. (photo coming)
I am going on a field trip with Sarah's class today and she is SO excited that I am driving.
My favorite Fall craft shows are the next 2 weekends.
I can wear a belt.
I have eaten a roast beef, lettuce, tomato,red onion, provolone on a bagel for the last 6 days for lunch       de-lish.
Mini pumpkins on my mantel.

Sad / Crabbiness:

Our basement wall is moldy and leaking and disgusting.
This also resulted in hiring someone to clean out our gutters- $100
He brought his girlfriend and their baby- 15 months old, hearing problems and drinking blue Gatorade from a bottle because "they ain't got no money to buy her milk" Yet they had plenty of cigarettes.
I paid this guy $100 and ended up holding the freaking ladder for him while hearing him complain about how high and steep my roof was etc. FOR 2 HOURS!
Somehow- our house is seriously in a state of Crack house. Well except the mattresses aren't on the floor. I know we are home more but OMG the clutter and laundry baskets and piles of paper and c.r.a.p. How can I just get to maintenance??!!  

A skip in my step

Totally rockin' my new pink polka dot Mary Jane's!


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The Goods...

So much for posting daily... I don't know where the time goes! I will admit that I have been on the kids Web*kinz wayyyyy too much keeping their pretend web*kinz bucks up and their gardens alive. I know-pathetic but have you played their solitaire games? Love em...

So, let's see hmm... what has happened this week? Well, as most of you have seen on Facebook, my sweet potato, my little birdie, my precious little hookalaka...

 

BUSTED OFF A GI-NORMOUS CHUNK OF HER FRONT TOOTH!!!

*This picture was just taken via my phone and she has been asked to show her tooth so much, she usually cries so I can't believe she actually let me take a picture of it.

 
No, we have really no clue how or actually where it happened- we went to Ellie's basketball game Friday night and then out to dinner with other basketball families. There was never a time she flipped out or was screaming (as one might think losing a CHUNK of tooth) or holding her mouth... End result, she has to have a freaking crown put on next Tuesday to the tune of $200 for us since our dental insurance pays 90%. Seriously? $2000 DOLLARS for a baby crown.

We have had soccer and basketball games galore also with Ellie scoring a goal in soccer and her first basket in basketball on Tuesday! Sarah scored 3 goals in her soccer game! Quite exciting even for a mother that has yet to see ANY of Ellie's goals scored in ANY of her 4 years of soccer even though I have physically been at all of said games. This time, I was taking off Margo's sweatshirt. sigh...

Also very exciting...

Henry had his first day of Pre-school!

 
Good Lord HOW can this sweet boy give me SO many grey hairs?

 

Our schools art teacher has contacted us to see if Ellie could be in a 4 week by reccomendation only Art Program for children at UC- I think we are going to do it- it sounds like a lot of fun and a neat opportunity- and I can get everyone up and down to UC by 8:45 AM every Saturday for 4 weeks... right?

I know more updates are needed-
* Like how much of an ass our dentist was Monday to Henry when he got his cavity filled
*Like how two of our four children are covered in mosquito bites yet the other two don't have a single bite. I just don't get it. I have one on my ear that is killing me!
*Like how I put up 2 new plantation blinds in our bedroom and it was the most painful home improvement project I have completed in our house to date. Let's just say... first time, wrong sized purchased, second time- stripped screws, split wood and eventually, a tree trimmer used to put them up and make them fit. But now they look great! :)

 

 

 

Wednesday- so far, so good...

Good morning-

Two kids are off to school via their Father. Two littles still snoozing. One Momma sitting at the computer with coffee. So far, so good. Henry gets to meet his teacher today and I can't believe he isn't up yet asking when we can go. I am worried about him. I keep having flashbacks to his week at Summer camp and how overwhelmed he was and how he had no clue what to do. I'm sure he will do fine but I also know he is... well a boy and can behave like a royal jerk. I want the teachers and kids to like him. I don't want him to be labeled as "the pest" as he truly can be one (on purpose) to all of his family. It's funny how I never thought this with the girls. Sweet, stinky boy.

Sarah had an unexplained fever for a couple days over our long weekend. Invites to cook-outs were declined, sleep over plans were postponed (for her) and I went ape-shit on their fooms. Anne, I totally know where you are coming from (AND totally used the work "douche" too when talking to a friend)- I seriously can NOT believe the amount of shit they all had in their rooms! I am shaking my head as I type! The short story is that Henry got a bunk bed (LOVES) and the girls got their room re-arranged, the old big rug pulled up and a new funky IKEA small rug put down. I felt SO guilty that Sarah has been living in that room with all of the dust and crap under the dressers and beds and rug! I plan on tackling the bins of junk and administer birth control to all of the - little people, polly pockets, littlest pet shop, zhu-zhu pets, squinkies and barbies sometime this week as I know it is just one big frat party goin' on in there.

I am loving the cool weather we are having. Fall is my favorite season and it took everything I had not to buy just a little something when I went into Home Goods the other day looking for sheets for Henry's new bed. That is a perfect example of how I just can't do that not working. All of the little things quickly add up. The funny thing about it being 57 yesterday morning was that I had opened windows in the house the day before and when we left to take the girls to school, EVERYONE was crying about how they were freezing- they ALL took blankets out to the van with them just for the drive to school! It made me laugh. I can guarantee Sarah ends up living somewhere in the South when she grows up- that girl cannot stand to be chilly.

I hear rumblings upstairs and need to fill up on another coffee- have a good day. Mine's be good- so far...

*Added to original post since Typepad is being an ass-hat and wont save this post and I have had to copy to Word and re-type. Grrr...

It's all about me...

Good morning- I just read Anne's Friday post and she made reference to some... ahem... blog slackers and since I am incredibly self centered, I immediately thought she was talking about me. Ahem... Again, I don't really have an excuse per say- I can tell the Lexapro is "working" for example, The weather was just perfect on Tuesday- one of the long sleeve with shorts kind of morning. I had many things I wanted to accomplish- laundry, bathrooms, try and do SOMETHING with organizing the kids rooms as they are SO bad and hoarder like cluttered that I just walk in their rooms and just spin in circles and then just walk right back out. So- Henry, Margo and I packed a lunch and went to this new park we have discovered and ended up going on a HUGE walk on a trail that I thought was only going to be a short jaunt but ended up being over a 2 mile trek on a level 3 trail. BUT- both of them HAPPILY walked almost the entire thing!

I even took my camera! It just ended up being a really fun time. The girls have started school and are in full swing of- well all of the crazy- homework (remind me to tell you about the new spelling words assignment for Sarah this year-re-DIC!) both are playing soccer and Ellie is also playing basketball again. Henry starts school on the 14th and seems to be very excited- I am frightened he will be a PITA and they won't like him. Let's be honest- he CAN be a PITA...

Margo- I can't believe how big she seems all of a sudden. She is really chatty- when she doesn't have that darn nya-nya in her mouth. I have alsways stopped the pacifiers right at 2years and I think this is going to be a rough one come November 17th! She is just a funny, sweet chunk.

 

Yes, she has Oreo mouth- It was a long walk! We needed survival food!

On the agenda-
John's 40th Birthday "party"- very fun!
pictures of the kids room- advice needed as Henry is getting a hand-me-down bunk bed
The results of my MRI for my effed up knee
Plan for my "future"
recipe request for easy dinners for late night practice nights

Artist...

Henry: Momma, what is this?
Me: Um... Not quite sure...
Henry: It's people dancing the Limbo and they can go really low...

Hahahahahahaha
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Guess which 2 little girls got their ears pierced today? I know- proof that I have really lost my mind! :)

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Me

Well, hello there. To catch up... I have seen my Dr. and in talking to her, I have upped my Lexapro to 15mg (from 10) I was very hesitant at first but agreed. Then, on the way home from her office, I called JW and asked if he could tell if there was any difference in ... well, me. He immediately responded "Yeah- I really do see a difference- well, if you're not talking about work stuff." and that confirmed to me that going up to 15 mg was just fine and dandy- I can tell a difference. I feel like smiling. I am making an effort to smile and to "be in the moment." I am trying. I was required to see a therapist- which I suppose still would have been done even if not required. It's nice to tell your thoughts ot someone that doesn't have other things to do or is tired of your life story. It is nice to have a complete stranger validate that you are indeed not crazy or losing your mind. It is nice to hear suggestions that make sense. It is nice to have someone tell you that "in order to heal yourself, you have to let yourself be first for once- not forever but for a while." I am trying to "live in the moment" because when "they" say times goes by so quickly and enjoy your children- even the naughty times... "They" are right. Something I haven't done in quite a while and I am enjoying "living in the moment" as much as I can.

Colleen came for a visit. We really didn't do much at all the day we spent together. But it was one of my favorite days in a long, long time. I just kept feeling so grateful that she is one of my best friends and how lucky I am to have that and for her to make to effort to come down here. Our girls rarely see each other yet they act as if they are family. They all truely enjoy each others company.  Thanks Colleenie- yet again- thanks.

I havent been on here. I have been reading but again not feeling like commenting. As of today, I am going to make an effort to consistently comment and blog. I have had this "journal" of my crazy life for over 6 years now and I am going to empower myself with it. I don't care who reads or doesn't. I don't care if you work with me and tracked me down because you heard I had a blog. I just felt that I couldn't speak on here for fear that the work "they" would know and use this blog against me.In my opinion, "they" have done enough damage.

 I'm coming back baby!

 

Down and Out...

Oh you guys- I am so sorry for leaving everyone hanging for so long! Thank you for sending "search and rescue" emails- they were very much appreciated.  So much has happened since my last post but since it is regarding work, I need to tread lightly. If you want to email or FB message, I will give out the details. The short story? Work and the people's horrible behavior and especially my manager and director were making my life there so utterly overwhelming I snapped. I was having unbelievable anxiety and panic attacks- both I have never experienced in my life and would not wish on anyone. I felt as I were drowning. I have been with my company 11 years- I have consistently done a good job. I do not have a stressful position and the behavior that is accepted and allowed there just amazes me. So, I requested a 24 day unpaid personal leave that has to be approved by my manager and director (the reasons why I was requesting the leave in the first place...) and it was denied. I flipped- went back to my doctor after leaving a meeting with HR and she was like "WHY didn't you tell me this two weeks ago?! You said work was very stressful but you didn't tell me all of this!" and she put me on medical leave (paid) and added Xanex to my Lexapro. Things are better. I feel like I am "dealing" with life. Could I walk back into that place tomorrow? Not a chance.

JW is on vacation this week- we are hanging out and doing fun in-town things. I am actually looking forward to it! Again, thank you- it is times like this that I realize how blessed I am for the friends I have. 

Tell Me Tuesday...

I had my physical this morning. Oh, you didn't know I was having a physical? Well, neither did I until last week when I mentally hit a wall- mainly with work. Since I don't talk about work here- let's just assume that it is bad enough to have a physical done and it's time to stop ignoring my eff-ed up knee.

After having a crying breakdown to my Doctor- she talked me into Lexapro. It can't hurt to try it.

 

Tell me...

 

Do you know anything about Lexapro?